Today marks six months since my mom passed away. It is also the day I am heading home to NY to do Christmas with my brother, sister, and grandma. I'll be there a few days before flying to Florida to celebrate more Christmas and New Years with Tate's family. It is definitely going to be weird. We've made plans to do Christmas activities, but I'm not in the holiday spirit at all this year. It isn't going to be festive - my mom usually had the house covered in decorations, but she's not there to put up the tree and arrange the Christmas village. Stocking stuffers and presents that were things we mentioned we liked over the course of the year are going to be noticeably absent. I feel like I need to be doing these things in her place, but I don't have the "mommy" knowledge - The innate ability to know exactly what the kids want and need for gifts. We usually have a huge meal - I think we may just order Chinese this year. We may go see a movie and pretend it is not painful to sit around the house she used to light up. Everyone says it will get better, but there are still a helluva lot of "firsts" we need to get through before then.
Last Christmas
My heart goes out to you. I don't know how I would manage without my mom so I can only imagine how hard this Christmas must be fore you. Surround yourself with loving family and friends.
ReplyDeleteLots of love and happy thoughts sent your way =)
:( What a hard thing to have to endure. I can only imagine how difficult holidays are, and really the past six months. I'll be sending happy thoughts your way! Hang in there :)
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about your loss and hope that you will be reminded of the great memories you were able to share with her.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your mother. I don't know what its like to loose a parent, but I do know what its like to loose a son. I can tell you from my experience it never gets better just easier. I hope you had a Merry Christmas.
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I know I'm late to comment but I hope that you found some Merry in the Holidays. I'm so sorry for all that you and your family are going through. But, it's always nice to get home and who doesn't need a few days in the sunny weather of Florida?!
ReplyDeleteI hope your Christmas was full of happy memories and good family around you to lift you up! xoxo
ReplyDeleteAwwwww tiff... Love you <3 Lauren
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